Crazy Kitty Love

Confessions of a cat lady…..

Don’t Get Too Skinny

on October 6, 2015

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Most people that I have told about my upcoming surgery have been supportive.  I have had a few people say “oh….that’s cool, but don’t get too skinny“.    I have always been a big girl & was shopping in the Pretty Plus section at Sears as a little girl.  I don’t know how it is to be skinny, as I have never been small.  I currently weigh 301 lbs, my heaviest weight being 330 lbs.    It’s not that i don’t like the way that i look now, but i want to be healthier.  I want to be able to cross my legs, sit in chairs and ride rides without worry.   I like the way 200 lbs looks on people, but even that it considered overweight.   Currently, I am afraid of not being able to hide behind myself and my weight jokes and I am also afraid of losing my big boobs.  lol…I’ve always been a “curves are better” type of girl.   BUT STILL, I can’t imagine myself any smaller that 200 lbs.

But what if i do?

Would being 165 or 150 lbs kill me?  Would i be unattractive?   Would my husband be disappointed?

NO, probably not.

But I would be healthier than i am now.  Isn’t that the end goal anyway?

I must learn to love myself on this journey at any size.

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2 responses to “Don’t Get Too Skinny

  1. imsjfink says:

    As another person who grew up shopping in the Pretty Plus section of Sears (what a blast from the past that is!!), I totally understand where you’re coming from! I’m 5’4″ and I’d be thrilled to be 175 & fit. Will I complain if I lose more? Probably not… but I really can’t imagine myself any smaller. And you’re absolutely right… we need to love ourselves at any size!

  2. crazycricketlove says:

    I used to HATE sears because of it ! lol. But it was nice that they had the pretty plus section, i suppose. lol

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