Most people that I have told about my upcoming surgery have been supportive. I have had a few people say “oh….that’s cool, but don’t get too skinny“. I have always been a big girl & was shopping in the Pretty Plus section at Sears as a little girl. I don’t know how it is to be skinny, as I have never been small. I currently weigh 301 lbs, my heaviest weight being 330 lbs. It’s not that i don’t like the way that i look now, but i want to be healthier. I want to be able to cross my legs, sit in chairs and ride rides without worry. I like the way 200 lbs looks on people, but even that it considered overweight. Currently, I am afraid of not being able to hide behind myself and my weight jokes and I am also afraid of losing my big boobs. lol…I’ve always been a “curves are better” type of girl. BUT STILL, I can’t imagine myself any smaller that 200 lbs.
But what if i do?
Would being 165 or 150 lbs kill me? Would i be unattractive? Would my husband be disappointed?
NO, probably not.
But I would be healthier than i am now. Isn’t that the end goal anyway?
I must learn to love myself on this journey at any size.
Crazy Kitty Love 